9002 - few more days to turn

i was born years back. from there on until now after every 365 or 366 days a year wakes up and an other year to history.
2008 is a year where many of my friends got married ending there bachelor life at the coffin. a year when India made its best appearance at Olympics. a year where the US president just missed the hit from 10 size shoes twice. a year where Lehman brothers crashed. a year where we hear of global economic crisis. a year when media created history making a mad rush live relay on mumbai terror attacks. a year where life seem to be different. a year where i found few new people in my life. a year where i faced different situations. a year where i realized different emotions similar to the year before and the year before.
People say the worst is yet to be seen in 2009. A year which is awaiting for us. and am sure nothing really worst will happen. probably its one of those year where the world as a whole steps in expecting the worst.
with just few days left for the year to come to a grand close, expecting this year to get completed with good hopes to welcome the new year in a happy note.
To everyone Wishing a great year ahead.

the online coneXen

In the world of damn world wide web. we keep meeting madhuri dixit, salman and sharukhs. what i mean is strangers whom we haven't met or have no other connection other than getting connected thro some waste of time so called social networking or some chat rooms. what a idiotic connection these are. even some end up getting married to each other. i too was going into chat rooms in very young internet days.
as i involve myself actively in many yahoo groups activity. i find someone or other pinging out. which literally made me to run away from yahoo messenger. one boring day few months back i had a chat invite from a person. the identity of the person 24f. 24f looked like Chennai bus number 23c. that person even got to know about me a little bit as he/she was also involved reading few of my useless and idiotic mails in the groups. as the person had some doubt about solving some social rotten issues.. asked my perspective. i felt wow man... someone thinks i can be of some use to help in arriving in some unrealistic solution. then started chatting with 24f for say some 20 minutes. and then i had to justify my work... so started working. after a while 24f asked again, so what time you will be on chat next. as i was unaware of my timings, i told 24f to mail me if he/she required any help. after few days when i was checking my yahoo i saw a mail from 24f. 24f had shared the gmail id so that we can chat on yahoo messengers rival google talk. so, i added 24f to my gtalk. 24f was online most of the time on gtalk like me. 24f was saying good morning... good afternoon... and good nite... for a while i also pinged 24f back. it was during a nite time... when 24f started communicating personal stuff. and i wanted to end things there. unfortunately! 24f provided me a invite to meet in person. well! it took almost 3 months for me to go and meet her as i was in no mood in meeting strangers. but, for the sake of it... i went to meet 24f. its only then i realized she was a distant known to me... actually not 24f but 29f and due to circumstances she moved into a profession which is the worlds first profession. and she uses messengers and gtalks and socail networking stuffs to get clients. i was very depressed... i was puzzled for a moment and then gave some words to her and few minutes of genuine friendship before i left her. and then she had removed me from all contacts and also i did not try reaching her.
Well! so all you people out there. don't encourage any online strangers. u mite end up in a deep nowhere. try to get to know some real people around instead.

Stinks

I will be fucked up when someone piss me off. My ass will be on fire if some asshole does it. I mite as well land up in deep shit. So, i better fuck off before it sucks me.
Actually! i don't communicate using beautiful words like piss, shit, fuck, suck, asshole and so on.
I find lot of them using it. Am talking here about Indians in general who are non-native English speakers. People use these by watching some hollywood movie and think it is fashionable to use these words. I request people to translate these sentences or words in their own mother tongue, so that they understand what they speak.
Sorry! about the gyan guys, just a thought from my mind which i want to communicate for a longtime. Next time when you speak ensure it doesn't stink :) unless it is necessary.

Left in the lurch

I preferred to be right in the lurch, but i am left in the lurch unfortunately. Its been few days of group discussion happening between me and many me's inside me. No! result drawn yet.
Well! what is this situation all about?
Its about everything and nothing.
To draw a broader perspective. global war activities, global economic crisis and situations boiling down to affect every citizen of the world from emotions, feelings and relationships. Not many is going good. At these times is where we struggle to find solutions in the limited and bright brains we have. and end up praying God hard to harder.
At these times there is a 5 point command which I believe
1. Stay Positive
2. Face the situation
3. Don't allow situation to dominate you
4. Try to be as happy as possible
5. Have faith and confidence

Its at these times where our real faith and confidence is taken for test. If we are confident and have faith in ourselves we survive and walk out of the lurch finishing it, else we get surrendered in the situation and from there onwards life takes a different turn. This time we end up living our life dominated by situations. This is known as caught in the lurch.
Its been sometime that i keep listening many things from many people and mostly its not a so good news. Sparingly i hear some good news. The end result of my hearing and also few realizations made me to write this blog.

I saw something today

It was during the late evening time, my head was spinning and i had to leave for home. I dropped to sip a tea in a road corner shop.

As i was sipping my tea, i saw a mother and a child walking in the corner of the road. From the movement i had my eye on them and until they vanished all i was hearing and watching is a mother cursing her child.

I saw tears flowing from the Childs eyes and demanding love from the heartless woman, who unfortunately happens to be his mother.

This incident really touched me and made me to realize not all mothers are great, and not all humans are good. Thankful to God, I have the best mother with me.

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Sense at Level 6

The sixth sense in we humans is a amazing thing which we possess apart from the five senses of smell, touch, vision, hearing and taste. We call our sixth sense as Intuition.

The sixth sense is a power which goes beyond practicality of life. Like Love at First Sight, Confidence and many more.

Sometimes we humans just neglect what our intuition says and surrender to the word PRACTICAL. The great people of the world were the strong followers of their sixth sense, like Mahatma Gandhi, Galileo, Einstein, Edison, Ramanujan, Aryabhata and many more.

There are small ways in which we can realise our intuition power. Like sometimes you feel someone is watching you and when u turn around you find a person. Or sometimes before someone utters a word you know what he/she is going to speak. Or You think of a person and the phone rings.

There were lot of incidents in my life where the sixth sense played a vital role. One such incident was during a time when i was suffering from group of diseases and was admitted in the hospital. It must be around mid time when no when was around and i was not able to breathe and i was not able to shout or even speak to call someone. Slowly my breathing was getting worst. it was very suffocating and i was loosing my consciousness slowly... at this hour my intuition said someone will be there in few moments and hold yourself... when i turned, i saw my dad and then i was saved.

Literally intuition means “inner sight”. Other meanings are 'inner consciousness' or 'inner knowledge'. Originally the word is Latin. According to the dictionary intuition is 'immediate mental apprehension without reasoning; immediate insight.' It is something that we all take for granted, yet is it not remarkable that somehow we can come to correct conclusions without having all the fact to hand and without using reason? How is it that we can form an immediate assessment of a person the first time we meet them and find that our initial insight is proved to be correct. And why is it that we can sometimes make a correct guess at a direction to travel or guess the answer to a question and get it exactly right. This is what we call the presence of sixth sense.
There are times when i run out of solution and my mind will have thousands of questions to answer, I call it as confusion. At these times i approach God to show me some sign and my inner consciousness rises with clarity and it will ensure my mind settles in peace and i am able to enjoy the happiness of the present moment. This inner consciousness is what i call it as intuition and it is often accompanied with confidence. In many mysteries surrounding us, i never understood this Intuition to a great extent but i just follow it. So far it has been so good.
So, at times i ask you not to surrender to the word Practical and just follow what your intuition says. May be Intuition is the way in which God is in constant touch with us and communicates to us.

Is Value of Life ChNAged with time?

At the night hours of a day, i was watching a classic Tamil movie in sun tv just the day after I watched a recent Indian movie in the theatres. The way in which value of life dealt was entirely different in movies those days and movies these days. Considering the fact that the movies are reflection of life. Loyalty was meant to be a normal thing those days and betrayal was a occasional incident. And today we people search for loyalty and trust has been the costliest thing in the world and act of betrayal and lies are normal. Even relationships were given a great value those days and these days we talk of right of homosexuality and justify pre marital and post marital affairs.

Thinking on these lines reminded me Darwins theory of evolution. His theory was derived from the basis of five observations.

1) Species have great fertility. They make more offspring than can grow to adulthood.
2) Populations remain roughly the same size, with modest fluctuations.
3) Food resources are limited, but are relatively constant most of the time.
From these three observations it may be inferred that in such an environment there will be a struggle for survival among individuals.
4) In sexually reproducing species, generally no two individuals are identical. Variation is rampant.
5) Much of this variation is heritable.

This states that the foundation is widely the same but, his theory also states that there is constant improvement in the species. Is the human species of these days are more prone to face disappointments and keep moving ahead.

I happen to meet people and it was very interesting learning their perception of life. which was widely "if you feel like doing it, do it" which was revolving around a selfish circle and respecting only their selfish motives. Is that... our own human species have changed and evolved to a new version of species? Is that we need to accept that this is a change and move forward or hold and keep reminding ourselves and others the value of life?

In today's world according to my view human life is dominated by greed and lust and the value of real life will soon be a dream of mankind. and may be movie makers instead of shooting a sci-fi movie will be shooting a movie based on value of life, which we generally term it as circle of life.

Whatever may it be. I strongly believe we have options to lead the life the way we want to lead. Lets choose the option which has got a long-term benefit rather than fulfilling our short term desires.

W O R D S (S W O R D)

Does words mislead? or Words gives you clarity?... Well! repeatedly asking these questions and finding answers, and also went to an extent of stealing this word "language deaf" from a blog.

What did Osho say... what did some guy say... What did your friend say... Its all words...

I was involved in a debating conversation with one of my friend who was insisting that words need to be spoken and taking my ears out and demanding me to accept Yes.. words are essential... by the end we ended up changing topic with some other words... like movies... music...

After a tiring conversation i saw my daughter who is only few months old... was enjoying the small sound she cutely makes and the smile she spreads... Also few days before i happen to see a expression which was so exciting... and see the sparkle of happiness in her face...

When i reached my house for the first time when i was in the hostel and watching my family... Reaching to a see a person whom you had missed for ages crossing the greenery and watching the person waving hands...

With all these running in my head Felt Words are just, good for communication and business... Happiness, satisfaction and peace is achieved only when emotions transact... like the laughter of my daughter... sparkle of happiness in a person eyes whom you had missed for ages... sense of relaxation watching my family...

Having said so many things... the fact also remains that... words are very powerful... You can hurt a person or comfort them by using words... We can call it as word power. Words are used to express once self...

Life is a beautiful place with so many emotions to realize... sometimes by hearing words... sometimes watching expressions... sometimes speaking out words... sometimes giving out expressions... The beauty of life can be enhanced when these are truthful and it can make things worst if those are fake...

I am done for now... thanks for dropping to read it.

Xp-err--hence

I am a person who has been growing along with microsoft products... first it was dos and then the advanced version of dos in which i played games like paranoid... dave... and then came windows 3.1... i was calling it wow... its amazing... those days it used to take around 20 minutes for the system to boot... but it was ok... was introduced to few more amazing features like wordpad... paint... and then came mac... i learned manythings using mac.... and then windows 95...98... and then xp...
we all know xp is great and also for its errors too...
Actually! just for the title i had to write such a boring stuff... i was about to blog on something else which is even more boring... well lemme do it...
It was early in the morning and it was today like getting all things rite... the way in which the day unfolded was interesting. The first thing was to get the presentation done for a meeting in the first half of the day... had everything on place and when i went to the place... it was like oops... there was no need of meeting at all.... as they had freezed on things just a day before... i tried my level best to convince them for the presentation... i was working almost a month for this presentation... Well! they cut a sweet sorry for me to taste it when i left that place... it was approaching 1 in the noon and this one was also an important meeting as well... almost everything had been done and they had freezed on us... so the day was to get the documents done and contract signed... yet again it was so unfortunate as they had someother issues and they had to go up with someone else... and they too gave me a sweet sorry for me to taste... i had two more meetings that day... and those were also important... It was approaching 4 in the evening... and it was time for me to get things rite and move forward for the meeting... went to the place and waited for an hour and at last they turned up... the result was a bit different... they said due to other priorities they have put this project on hold and they might be taking it again after couple of months... now the last one... it was scheduled at 8:30 in the nite.... it was with a vip guy... this time the project was half way through and was payment time... thought should be a cool game... went there and was waiting... waiting... it was 9:30... and this guy turned up and gave peanuts... and thats the way the cookie crumbled....
Well! the four meetings had different outputs and initially i thought nothing went rite... took things together on that night and thought should get things done... did a small research and analysis stuff...
Well! in the second meeting on the day the reason the people said was due to some issues they had to go with someone else even though we were freezed... actually that was helpful for me to find the gateway for the first meeting... thought once someone is freezed... still things can change... afterall its a business world... laid a good foundation and in three days time the destiny was changed... the guy who made me to taste a sweet sorry in the first meeting three days later he did that for someone else and we were in...
now for the second meeting... when something is freezed then it has to be that way... so... yet again laid a foundation there for the gateway and within a week time destiny changed yet again... we were in again...
for the third meeting... have laid a foundation and waiting for the result... for this last meeting the guy who gave me peanuts... gave him back the same... and then he realised and released.

Actually! that day made me to realize... that no day is bad day... Its only that we need to have the mindset to learn from things... Just in case if things had gone smoothly on that day... then i wouldn't have learned things... sometimes in life whatever we learn from the tough times are of great value when we want to taste success...
well! thats it for now... thanks for dropping in to read...

When i ran out of thoughts

I had my lunch and i am feeling drowsy, had a heavy meal. Thought the best thing would be to scribble something in the blog... Got it. I am gonna write straight without reading it and lvng it to you all. thanks for dropping to read a crap stuff... your on ur way to waste your time...
for all those who want to be creative or who think they are creative like me... then here is something which we need to understand... every individual is creative... and it is something which keeps changing from time to time by the use of technology and other related damn things... i guess we are approaching a state of creative exploitation... the purpose of creativity is to enhance something... actually what happens is... Well! i guess i gonna change my topic now... am running short of words to write...
Well! actually few days back i was moved highly by seeing a sexy girl wearing a sexy top with a sexy skirt and if i had to define her she is the acronym of sexy... when i went close to her, she turned towards me... and luckily i got some topic and few words to catch her attention... well called her out for dinner i felt so good when she nodded her head in the same sexy style... when we went for the restaurant it was all set for a blasting romance... just before it was about to start my brother was kicking my ass as it was already 9 in the morning...
I guess this should do for now... thanks for dropping to read... please be as harsh as possible as my language is worst and the presentation is poor... and please only comment on how more worst i can make it.